The Runaway Train

I can't sleep tonight. Yet I'm nightdreaming when awake. My mind keeps fleeting in and out of conscious abandonment with rickety recklessness. Notions of Life and its ephemerally embryonic existence darts in and out of the membrane of my hallucinatory reverie - maybe it's just the 3 cups of coffee I had today.

Pulled along the path of reflecting rectitude, I must progress. Caught in the tides of still sentiment, I must confess. And swept away by the waves of purposeful perseverance, I must aggress.

An awareness that is onboard a runaway train of equivocal intent, locked onto the tracks of steely prospect that churns out smokes of inconsistent faith leaves me with a lot of material and immaterial resolution for the year.

Words formed into phrases. Phrases fused into sentences. Sentences expressed into paragraphs. Paragraphs borne into purpose and the sentience takes precedence into milimalism.

Make time for prayers. Read more books than last year. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes a day and meditate or pray. Sleep for 7 hours. Take at least a 10-30 minutes walk everyday and smile while you walk.

Do not compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Do away with thoughts on things out of your control. Invest your energy on the living force of the here and now. Do not overdo, keep your limits. Take yourself less seriously because no one else does. Waste time and energy not on gossips. Dream more in your waking moments. Envy is a waste of time because you already have all you need. Hate not for others as life is too short to be wasted on hating anyone. Make peace with your past so it will not spoil the present. You are in charge of your happiness. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra classes but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime; so realise life is a school and you're here to learn. Smile and laugh more often. Every argument out there is not for you to win. Agree to disagree.

Call your family often. Give something good to others each day. Forgive everyone for everything. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 7. Try to make at least three people smile each day. What other people think of you is none of your business. Your job won't take care of you when you're sick. Family and friends will, so stay in touch.

Do the right things. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. God heals everything. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. When you awake alive in the morning, thank God for it. And no matter how you feel; get up, dress up and show up! The best is yet to come.

As I end my entry in the lightless vicinity of my room, I concede to the importance of family and friends in life. Be that as it may, never depend on anyone but yourself in this world because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness.