Sandpapers of Salvation

I am sorry that you have to go through what you go through. I wish there was a way I could tell you that everything will be alright and actually believed it. And in saying that, I would actually help you to carry yourself out from the depths of your scarred soul and bitter heart. But knowing what has happened before and what is still happening to you, I know I am merely telling you a fabricated assurance from the bottom of my empathetic heart.

But empathy is not all I have to declare to you in this longstanding connection we have that is called friendship. I have countless times proclaimed my dedication and loyalty, trust and awareness, sympathy and forgiveness, and even silent companionship. I have given all these and yet I have given nothing, at least not something where it matters most, to raise you and to lift you back up again.

I know you are extremely tired of being here, your own reality. I have seen your past and present still haunting you. I know you wish it would leave you alone and just disappear. But know this; it will never go away. Your once pleasant dreams will always haunt you. And if you do not allow yourself to hurt, that voice will chase away your sanity. For I know in your loneliest hours you cried yourself to sleep and tried so hard to remind yourself there is just too much real pain that time can never erase.

But time is what you have. You must see that you are not bounded by your past and what was left behind. I know that you must think you hate life at the moment and embrace death. I can see that in your mind you hate life because of what it has been to you, a beautiful lie all along. And you believe your yearning for salvation lies in death, the painful truth. I pray for you that eventually you will learn that suffering is part of life and death is immortality without existence.

I have seen you speaking to yourself and expecting signs from someone divine. I have seen you searching for that light to lead you back to a place where you can find peace again. I hope that you can continue to bring yourself to walk there, to keep trusting and to find your purpose. For in that storm, you calm yourself. For in your own hands, you will not let yourself fall. For in your own heart, you take your own breathe away.

But you are not there yet. And knowing that in itself is to know where you stand, to understand how you will be moved, and to accept the truth that everything will become better than this because I have seen it before, in others now and in others before you. You will see in the end that this was meant to happen to you, that you were meant to lose your innocence. You were supposed to lose yourself so that you can find yourself again. Everyone needs to find themselves at least once in their life.

I want to tell you that this is being in existence. I want to welcome you to life and everything that it has to offer you. All you have to do is to reach for it yourself. I want you to realise that there will always be conflicts and struggles, and you will never be alone. You must know now that you have people who care, who are watching and who are waiting to see what will happen next with you. So I want to dare you to fall and to fail, to move and to hurt.

But it does not stop there. The need to overcome and rise is between who you are now and who you could become, between how it is and how it should be. I want to remind you that the path to salvation and redemption starts right where you fell, for forgiveness lies at your feet. So take it, for it belongs to you. And always remember that when people hurt you over and over, think of them like sandpapers. They may scratch you and hurt you, bit by bit. But in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.

Everyday Immortality - The Mathematical Ghost

Before my decision to observe them, subatomic particles are probability amplitudes or mathematical ghosts in a field of infinite possibilities.

People make mistakes throughout their lives. Is this a fair statement? Before you answer this, have you ever wondered what constitutes a mistake? Can the implications of a mistake be definitive? What are the atoms of a mistake?

Where permanence and perpetuity are concerned, a mistake is a make-up of overlooked immaterial emplacements from material movements of events in time and space.

We often ignore and disregard what is perceived as irrelevant to us. Unheeded signs become inconsequential. This human nature and behaviour is in fact a derivative of quantifiable actions and intentions limited only by our perception of reality.

The essence of a mistake is an error. I have always believed in this single and fundamentally overriding philosophy: an error only becomes a mistake if it is repeated.

So is it inaccurate to say that we make more errors in life than we have care for the repeated errors made that become mistakes ultimately?

Because I keep my faith in the fact that errors and mistakes made are a function of our choices denominated by our warped sense of control and numerated by our inability to predict a logical response to our environment.

It is no different when stating I have not made a mistake by getting lost in the wilderness because I did find my way eventually, but I admit getting confused with my surrounding for several hours and it was an error on my part.

I strongly feel that it is important to be able to recognise the difference between errors and mistakes in life because it sets the tone of your expectations on people and your surrounding which ultimately determines your reaction.

Imagine that you were tasked to gather the ingredients for a recipe your mother is going to prepare tonight. Had you forgotten to drop by the grocery store on your way home and obtain the said ingredients, you would have made a mistake causing a significant impact to the events that will unfold for the rest of the evening. Your mother’s logical response would be to get angry with you.

On the other hand, if you did not forget the ingredients but somehow made the misjudgement of getting the correct amount of ingredients listed, you would then have made an error but the recipe would still be intact and dinner would still be served. There is no real need for your mother to get angry here but instead, to show you her wisdom in acknowledging your errors and recognising the easily overlooked fact that you did remember to drop by the grocery store on your way home. People often take little things like that for granted.

And this is what they truly are: errors are deviations from a set of planned actions but mistakes are errors caused by a fault. The ability to determine the difference is what sets a leader apart from a group of followers.

When one realises this, he or she will then see mistakes as the axle of choice and opportunity.

Where opportunities are concerned, mistakes allow evolutionary stability to exist within a society or a group of people. For it to be achievable there must exist a positive probability of mistakes in all circumstances within the grouping. For it to be sustainable there should be some strategy that is the best response to itself in all situations for every possible interaction within the group.

The conditions of a positive probability and a strategy for response cannot be restrictive. In real life, mistakes are always possible. As long as there is some chance of errors occurring, then every possible sequence of behaviour will be generated with some probability.

Like a person’s inability or ability to believe in ghosts, mistakes are inevitable and one should never be afraid to make them. Believe in mistakes. Because when you do, you will see that a collection of mistakes is what is called experience.

Idea Is The Bigger Money

In a world of parochial politics and liberal economics, money is not everything. The disparate power in business interests are not just driven by political contributions. The overlooked and underlying core is that ideas play a big role too.

The importance of ideas can be harvested from the simplest of things. These ideas can then be repackaged and sold to the mass in deceptive corrugates of appeal. This entire process can be loosely defined as suggestive marketing.

An example that defines this fallacy at the highest level of societal bureaucracy is the creation of bills and acts. Where it favours the powerful constituencies, these acts and bills are generally given appealing and misleading names. In the United States, a tax holiday to repatriate foreign earnings is called the “American Jobs Creation Act.” It was passed because it is easier to sell a bill that allegedly benefits the public mass and not beneficially skewed towards a small group of society’s privileged members.

In the health frontier, new ideas spawn new drugs. As noble as the fallible field and parallel profession sounds, the pioneers of this front are driven by the hope of securing lucrative patents despite dedicating their lives searching for the cure to cancer, regardless of any monetary incentives. Researchers here often delude themselves into thinking they are inspired by the noblest of goals. The cold hard truth is that their need for funding forces them to take into account profitability. So often is a drug created but cannot be shared with the world because it cures rare diseases or diseases that affect people who cannot afford to pay for them.

At the arena of the literati, the process of creating new ideas and new evidence of old ideas is not that different. The scholars here are not motivated by patents, but by the hope of academic prominence and the money that comes with it. This is their one hope of attaining certifications, citations, recognitions, and elevations despite devoting themselves into their lifelong search for the truth, regardless of any personal gains. Intellectuals here often deceive themselves into thinking they are spurred on by the most ethical of purposes. The ugly truth is that their need for grants forces them to take into account the demand for ideas. Too often an idea is archived simply because its mechanism of amplification is not appealing enough to be lobbied.

In a very simplistic truth, pivotal human achievements in time only pursue and celebrate whatever that benefits the society that controls the power. There is no more the good for the greater whole. It is now called the good for the greater empowering whole.

There is always an abundance of demand for evidences that celebrate the benefits of a certain undertaking in an industry or field that justifies government and corporate subsidies. There is no equally structured demand for evidences that these sponsorships are distortionary and a waste of money, making the invested organizations less competitive rather than giving them the edge.

The reality of the futurescape today is that the idea of pro-market does not necessarily mean pro-business. A pro-market landscape seeks to encourage the most ideal business conditions for everyone. On the contrary, a pro-business landscape only aims at maximizing profits of existing players in the market. Therefore, the market will gain from evidence that an industry is too saturated; its profit margins too high and the consumers are being ripped off. The players can only profit from the lack of it.

It is where suggestive marketing thrives, at its most subtle. As easy as it is to observe it, it is also important to appreciate the possible distortions in the market for their creation and diffusion.